The Grand Illusion

Good day today friends. Had a visit to the doctor for quarterly check up. Good news is that I am going to live. Bad news is cholesterol was up so have to start a statin. Can't say I have much to say today except give somebody a hug for no reason. Will be back tomorrow. Peace Rusty

Another Brick in the Wall

So today was a better day. Still feeling a little down at times. Depression seems to some in an intermittent mode. I can now understand how someone can be depressed and friends never know about it. I go out each day and put on a happy face to my friends and family despite how I feel on the inside. Enough on that for now. I am back on my regular gym schedule. I have a 5 day routine which is working much better than my 7 day routine. When I had a 7 day gym routine it was almost impossible to make it every day and when I missed I was really hard on myself and got really down about missing. 5 days a week is much more realistic and I feel really good about myself because I don't have the guilt of missing a day. Today I attended a meditation class. It was non-denominational guided meditation. It was my first time to attend a class or actually meditate. I really enjoyed it. I plan to add this to my Monday schedule every week. Now on a total Rusty's Thoughts note: We all need to learn to say "I love you" to the people we love. Don't be afraid of those three little words or if the other person feels the same about you. There is nothing wrong with loving someone for no reason. Think about it, as a species we really have no problem expressing anger. How many times have we been cut off on the road, or someone does something that ticks us off and we have no problem giving a rude gesture or mumbling something off color under our breath. Now think about how many times you have just walked up to someone and said I love you or given them a hug for no real reason. I have a challenge for everyone. Tomorrow stop yourself everytime you have a negative or angry thought. You will be surprised at how negative we have become and we do not even realize we are doing it. Peace everyone and I will write more tomorrow. Rusty

Sometimes beautiful art just covers a hole in the wall

Again it has been a long time since I have written. I have been on a little bit of a rollercoaster of late. I never understood people who suffered from depression and anxiety before. Its seems though of late i have had to deal with it myself. I have realised these past few months that naybe I havent been as good a friend to others as I could have been so I find myself now feelin like I have nobody to talk to about things going on in my life. So I will take my therapy to the internet - why not? I am not sure what I feel comfortable saying here so I will close tonight by saying I will survive and I am not at a dangerous poin as of thid moment. I will try to post more tomorrow and see what I feel lime sharing then. Goodnight all and may you all find peace and love in your lives. Rusty