Dating Again

So I attended a social function tonight for gay men.  Tuesday Night Supper Club, kind of a social and networking group that I got invited to by two men I met at a happy hour a couple of weeks ago.

I was chatting with them when a man (Wade) came in and caught my eye.  I was interested but I am really kind of awkward in these situations.  I either never say anything to people I am interested in or I go overboard and just dont stop. 

My friends encouraged me to say hello and so I did.  We chatted a few minutes and then the group mentality took over and we ended up in a group of people all chatting about different things.

I was asking his friend about him and his friend said to go talk with him again.  It was then I realized (and told his friend) I want someone to want to talk to me and/or ask me out.  I have spent my whole life pursuing those I am interested in and never has anyone pursued me.  This time I want the latter.

BTW the function was great and I met some wonderful people!

Back from a LONG Break

Hello everyone (or just me),
I have returned from a very long hiatus from writing on here.  It has been a long journey for me the past what 3 years now.  I ended one long term relationship, got involved in another relationship that led to a domestic partnership and is now in divorce court and while that was going on had another shorter term relationship and am now currently single.  Wow, what a roller coaster ride that was.

I would have to say that I am not exactly thrilled with how it all turned out but all things in life happen for a reason.  Everything that has transpired has made me a better person.

I even went to Los Angeles to live for a short while and that was probably the biggest mistake I have made in years.  I left a good job here in Palm Springs to follow someone for love and in hopes that a new place would fix some old problems.  I have to report to you all that it did not (nor did it ever) work. 

Fortunately, I have a great support system here in Palm Springs so I was able to return here pretty much with nothing and I have been getting along okay.  I am back at my old job (I am a hair stylist) at Josef Saliba Salon downtown and I love it.  I have had a place to live thanks to friends and am getting ready to move back into my house (thats another long story) so things are getting back on track.

I met some great people along the way but I also lost a couple of friends on that same road.  Funny how that can happen.

I have been alone (and living alone) for about 6 weeks now.  While at times it has been a little lonely I think we all need that time alone to reflect and think.  I have also been studying Buddhism a little bit again and that provides a lot of self examination and introspection.

Thanksgiving has passed this week and although I make very little money at the moment and I am living in a hotel room (for 6 months now) I still feel I have lots to be thankful for.  I have friends that care about me and that is more important than wealth or fame.  I have family (my brothers and to some extent my father) that still care for me and oddly enough I have a lot of friends on facebook (most of which I have never actually met) that have really helped me through the last few years. (Oh and if you have read my few previous posts I still play World of Warcraft)

I have taken this blog a few different places from talking about my journey back into the leather community (which did not end well (due to a relationship, not the community)) to just a place for me to talk about whatever comes to mind for me.

So my question(s) to you, the readers is/are:

What would you like me to talk about?
Do you have any comments?
Is anyone even reading this?

Email me at Rusty04@gmail.com